Sleep Evades Me

Without pain
you do not know life. 
Without love
you do not know life.
I do not know life.
I only know the half of it.
Pain comes and goes.
Life is fleeting,
yet seems so long.
I cry at the beauty of life.
I cry out in pain.
I still see no future,
yet I have been living my own for all these years.
Time floats before us
and passes by us.
Constant is time.
Constant is pain.
Consistency is permanent
as we float on by.
I try as I might for
a positive foot holding.
Suffering is holding me here afloat.
Let me be gone.
Gone amongst the wind
to the multitude of stars in the sky.
Let me see from far above
to find my way in the land without love.
I search, not to be in love,
but to live around love...
Compassion, passion, desire, and hope.
Seeking clarity.
Holding on to the tendrils left on my rope.
Climb as I may
float as I might,
the end is near.
Fight through the night.
Sleep evades me.
Thoughts invade me.
Let it rain and cleanse me.
The guilt of sin betrays me
through the restless nights. 
Walk on through life.
Keep laughing, keep smiling.
Pretend to see what is right.
We are all lost and afraid.
Society is dismayed.
Civilization has an end
because man has no friend.